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Well it has been a busy two years. Actually it's been >three years since I wrote an entry here Ohh myyyyyy. I finished half of university in Arizona but it's probably actually less than half because I am moving to Spain and finishing my degree (let us hope) there and will have to take a bunch of different classes. I also went to a bunch of shows that in hindsight I really wish I would have written here about omg!!! The souvenirs I have are reduced to videos on my special flash drive and too much money worth of thursday merch and photos of my bruises from the pit I also went on a really cool day trip with my friends last year that would have been cool to write about! I will upload some photos though I think. I also visited my family in Spain TWICE almost forgot! Anyway all this to say now that I'm on summer break I've returned to my one true love: THA INTERNET. I don't know if I have anything poignant to say so now I will write about my day.

DEAR DIARY today I woke up at 10:30 AM and I watched the Roland Garros final with my father. It was between Carlos Alcaraz and Jannik Sinner. To all those unfamiliar [looks out at the packed audience] this is my tennis RPF yaoi OTP. My life changed when I saw them play the latest finishing (2:50 AM!) and second longest US Open final in history in 2022 I fear it is what made me a real tennis fan. Boys love conquers all I guess.

Well that tangent is over now so let me continue to say guess what: this Roland Garros final was the LONGEST IN HISTORY. 5 hours and 29 minutes. Jannik won the first two sets with a tie break on the second one so it wasn't looking too good for Carlos. But then he won the second two sets, with the EXACT same amount of games won by them both for each one. At which point they went into the last set for which they had to play a SUPER TIEBREAK with which Carlos finally won the match (yayy) if only because he is a bit more resilient athletically than Jannik in my opinion. Tell me do you see the potential now? Do you see my vision? They are the only people who can consistently match each other's level. They are literally pushing the limits of tennis as we know it for their yaoi mind games. This is kind of like Lawlight.

After tennis I watched some football with my dad since the nations league final between Spain and Portugal was on. Everyone was very kawaii except Ronaldo I HATE that bitch. Wow guys sorry for the sports talk. I spent the rest of the day finishing this Japanese BL drama called Futtara Doshaburi (When it Rains it Pours) and oh my godddd. I don't have another long paragraph in me but it was so amazing it was almost everythign I could ask for... So realistic and #angsty and most importantly SEXUAL FRUSTRATION. One thing you must know is that I think erectile dysfunction, sexual repression, etc. is one of the SEXIEST things that can exist in my yaoi. Infidelity is an added bonus in the right scenarios, this drama being one. Now I say that but let's not discard the absolute masterpiece that was this series regardless of my perverted tendencies. The acting was so good, everyone had such good chemistry, and the writing was just so ohhhhhhhhh. The realism is what gets me like yes this is exactly what would happen and isn't that beautiful and cute and sad. I don't know what I'm trying to say but my heart explosion prompted me to write a review on MyDramaList which is only a tiny bit less incomprehensible than this. Lord. Also the rain metaphor really got me i dont even GAF. I love boys love. Clearly from the decline in my writing ability I am getting sleepy, so I'm going to end this entry here. What a yaoiful day, goodnight everynyan.

On this sunny Saturday morning 5 of my friends and I woke up bright and early to pile into a minivan and drive to Sedona, AZ! ROAD TRIP!!!!!!!!

I stayed up late the night before finishing a big project for class so I was super duper sleepy but the excitement got me out of bed without a problem and once we were on the road bumping Black Eyed Peas I'd totally forgotten how tired I was. I lost my voice partying in the car before we even got there!

After a few hours that went by super quickly, the scenery started to become breathtakingly beautiful like OMG. I've been to the grand canyon once when I was little which is even more impressive, but I totally forgot how insane the southwest can look!!! I couldnt get my eyes off all of the crazy rock formations O_o

Almost at our destination, we encountered our first predicament. -_- We wanted to go hiking and swim at this creek, but upon approaching the parking lot we saw a sign that said it only allowed cars with five or less people in them to enter. Those of you who have been observant will remember that there were SIX of us including me! We really did not feel like parking at the next closest available area which was like a mile away. NOPE. So my 6 foot 3 friend decided to take one for the team and get buried under everyone's stuff to pass by the entrance undetected. In hindsight I have no idea why we all just went with hiding the tallest guy there. I was also sitting in the back and am only 5'7". Sorry bro...

Anddddd our heist was a success! We parked the car, resuscitated him, and prepared to begin our trek. The hike was actually very easy, but without being boring! And the views were even better up close :0 I kept stopping to take photos of everything!

We crossed streams and climbed rocks and after about 45 minutes we found a perfect spot to set up our base. This big flat rock across the creek shaded by a tree was perfect to fit the six of us comfortably and have a picnic on. All we had to do was cross a precarious arrangement of rocks amid the running water, and well... we made it! And NO ONE got wet. Being the courageous soul I am, I crossed first and confirmed everything was stable so my friends could make it across safely B^) We all left our stuff on the rock and immediately jumped in the water. It was soo cold I actually went numb for liek 30 seconds Σ(ﾟДﾟ；) but after I got used to it it felt really good in the Arizona October heat~ I had soo much fun splashing around with everyone but we had to be careful not to get dragged away by the current!

After we were all tired it was time to have lunch :3 We spread all our towels out on the rock and chatted while we ate yummy food. I'd woken up early to make spam musubi and shared some with everyone. My friend brought a jar of pickles and sweet lemon soda, and when we finished the pickles we decided to try mixing the pickle juice with the soda. It was actually really yummy, seriously. At one point the friend we had hidden in the car earlier decided to go set up his camera on a rock in the middle of the creek to film a timelapse of us, which came out super cute. But when he went to go stop the recording, disaster struck! The current pushed him over and he fell into the water, getting his clothes completely wet. Poor boy. Thankfully he was not hurt... and at least the whole thing was caught on camera, teehee!

His clothes quickly dried on the walk back to the car thanks to it being SO hot. I made the bad decision to not put my shoes back on until we reached dirt, and when we had to cross this big patch of small rocks they were much sharper than anticipated and it hurt my feet SO BAD!!! But I was too stubborn to put my shoes on so I just dealt with it ヾ(▼ﾍ▼；) I was sad to leave nature, but we had more fun to get to so it was fine. We all got back in the car and started toward Sedona proper. About ten minutes into the drive though, one of my friends realized she forgot her SHOES in the parking lot somehow. She felt really bad, but we just went back and they let her run in to go get them. Whew. For real this time, we started the drive to the downtown. There was a huuuge traffic jam to get in which was annoying, but we persevered (҂◡_◡) ᕤ

The downtown was really beautiful and old! There were a bunch of pretty fountains and mosaics and shrines, and with all the stone buildings and trees around it was surprisingly cool. I had such a good time going around to different touristy gift shops with my friends. We all got super cute matching handmade fish beads from a bead shop. I saw these really cute raku mice in one shop.

We also went to this really cute chai spot (literally called chai spot) and I had a delicious iced chai and milk rusk. I wish I'd taken better photos of it because the place was really cute and so was my order! There were cool rugs everywhere that we sat on and sipped. The rest of the day basically consisted of us walking around Sedona, taking in the views, and exploring overpriced shops selling cool rocks. We actually ran into a mutual friend of mine that also went to our uni by coincidence on the street! This is definitely one of the most common weekend destinations for students there so i wasn't too surprised since we were on a short fall break, but it was a cute encounter nonetheless. We watched the sun start to set behind the BIG ROCK we'd been seeing all day and it was so beautiful~~~

It was best to leave before it got too dark, so we got in the car, albeit reluctantly, and began the trip back home. On the way, we stopped in a natural coop to have a snack, and I bought a new herbal infusion with berries and flowers in it (it's really delish). The sleepiness started to hit me and all my friends who weren't in the driver's seat, so everyone was dozing off a little but you know we still blasted loud music the whole way. Sorry Ms. Chauffeur... I fell asleep almost as soon as I entered my room (_ _ ) . . z Z

Though it was only one day, this was a super memorable trip. I became so much closer with my uni friends and I'm jsut happy I got to see such pretty scenery~~ I hope we get to do something similar again soon... thank you for reading!!!!!!!!!!!

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Happy Friday itis the first official day of spring breka im chillin. (THIS PARAGRAPH MAKES ME SAD DONT READ IT TBH!) Not really.beacsue. my dad was fixing my compuetr yesterday and long story short i was really PISSY because he kept waking me up at night when i wanetd to sleep early. but i shouldnt have been so mean so i feel bad. but the worst part is he needed to make space to install an update and he didnt want to bother me anymore so he deleted all my downlaods thinking there was nothign important in there. adn you wont guess guys. ALL my stuff was in downlaods. adn i tried everyhting adn cant get them abk but oh well... at least msot of my graphics were in the google drive but i kind of had a lot that i hadnt synced to it yet. too bad..nothign to be done... im just chilling now
my current dilemna is i want to do to amny things that involve listening. I want to listen to teh bends which i am doing becasue i need to lsiten to SOMETHIGN while im blogging. but also i wany to listen to a wtyp podcast becasue its been a while since ive sat downa dn actualy listened. and i also want to finish this nft video essay on youtube but i also want to watch this web3.0 one but i aslo want to watch this one on vampires before dracula and thers so many others in my watch later. Also this is somethign i could do while liek lsitening to music i want to read dracula really bad its been sitting on my desk im gettign the itch. but im kidn fo too lazy i could also read manga but ive been bored byb everythign im reading lately. ok guys ill actually listen to the bends and try to write my essay but im not making any promises

update this is all out fo order i was right you guys i took my meds and i am chilling now so hard

i dont want to fo to choir

Ok nobofy read this aim just writing becase i hope it will make me feel better so i can atelast cncentrate on my work. iiam just sad i think idnotn knwo how i feel ijsuycanot stop crying i am just being abrat i think i nothing has HAPPEND to me ijust alwaysu feel bad for myself idontknow why im liek this. adnits liek nobody is alalowed ot feel abd wihtout me takign it so personally liek iithin k eveyroen just haets em eprmanently for ever and icant stop thinkign it i know its not true butimjust thik liek evrythign is ruined for ever. butiam so selfish peopea re aloewd to feel bad iknow they will fee better later. I should just go to therapy again but then i will have even less time with my friends and it will prpnaly just not begood for me i am probbaly just sayign that i rpoabkyk need therapy. kidont care im sure i wil be fine when i wake up tomorrwo butiam gwetting so tried of thikig like that it workslike iam fine but it feels liek the amount of time ithat i am ok keeps getgnshorter ims ure im just stressed by school but o am tired of saying tht too this is notbecause of schol ohmy gofd its juts my brain admbut i cant admit it itliek im not allowed to feel bad either i am allowed to feelbad fro dumb reasons but ifeel like that is such a burden on everyone andi am just the number one cuase of everyones worries adn problems i am so fuckign narcissiscisiiytic. Godi should delete this becase iwill see ti tomottow anda want to klll myself beacsue i make such big deals outof evyrhitngbutohmy go ugh .it sucksso bad i need alobotomy get me out liek i thgought i was ok andthen suddenly iamjust notok i think too muhc ime ecying ag8ing oh my god stop i jsut wantto get my work done then i will feel fineadni will feel so fien tomorrwo but what if eervyeone else doesnt. iam SUCH A BBAY get oevr it egt over it im doign vhemistry now please Feeling like:arima from kare kano.L.O.L.
Ypdate: my heart stoppe beating so afst icanot concntrate stllw ahtever mayeb isbhiudl opne mesages ims of uckign tired i hate
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Hi guuuyyys. im so sleepy its t3echincally epril 10 but i but ok. im so sleepy. today my irl friends invited me out to dinner for their birthdays. but bfore then i woke up at like 1 pm. LAAAAAAME. i set an alarm at 8:30 but i think i forgot to turn it on so i was really sad about that when i woke up. but then i showered and i ate mexican food for lunch so i was happy adn i was chatting and hanging out wiht selin adn alice wehn she woke up. and i went shopping for presents to get my friends aaand then i got ready and went to dinner. it was pretty fun we had PIZOOKIES for dessert they were os funny adn yumy/ also they were all like 45 minutes late to their own birthday dinner shakes head i waited innthe parkign lot talkign to selin and alice while they games. but it was fun and i dont regret goign but i was sad i couldnt hang out with selin and alice adn i will be busy tomorrow and that is just sad! sad. and i wanted to work on my site iw as inspired by seeing how awesome selins looks but i ended up not. instead me and alice watched all of nyan neko sugar girls adn then we watched the first episode of ahs and i AHTED IT. shouldve wathced the dropout instead. whATVER had fun anyway im koneko chan. i shoudl work on my site mroe soon idk when i will be able to i need to fix this stupid thign it is like this and idk why boohohoohoo,. i miss selin. that smy blog guys. i sound sad mostly i am just sleepy ok. goodnight. yawns goodnught. yawn loveyou

Hi!!!! Happy April 8th So soooo Whats up guys been a few days since i blogged i shoudl try to do it evryday beacsue i dont rememebr what happened before today but here i am. It was SO hot today max of 93 degrees f I am still fuckign melting it is 12:24 am let me go. I have so much work in school F quarter 4 im so stressed but i am havign fun a little. also in school we are having multicultural week?and clubs sold a bunch of food during lunch th epast 4 days it was terribly overpriced but its a fundraiser so what ever. i had a mochi donut today its been so long it was sort of MID and it was melting on all my shit from the heat but it was worth it becasue the texture bro! When i got home i felt like I was dying for like 45 minutes my stomach hurt so abd but i took a shit and felt ok. is this tmi to be putting on my public blog whatever. it happend again later but it was fine. When i hung out with selin we talked about our pony ocs so cute! i have so many ideas now giggles! i was too lazy to work on my site today i barely did anything productive though. Iam chatting wiht alice now we are bffs we are hangign out so hard and we talked about harry potter which i really want to reread and watch right now but i CANT i have somuch stuff to do.
On the topic of stuff to do i have to write an essay on the great gastby for monday but do not worry i will not bore youwiht school instead I will talk about my latest obsession the great gatsby. Curse 11th grade english i have become so obsessed witht his book it makes me so fuckign emotional thinking about it and this makes me feel like i am a 7th grader fujo i am guilty i only read this book because I wanted Jay and Nick to kiss. I am so fuckign cringe get me OUT of here. I must confess that i even sunk so low as to read a FANFIC. I swear I didn't ask for this guys I just. The book is just so sad i dont want to put spoilers on here i think but it is just so so sad I am not actaully just into it for fujoshi reasons I had FUN writing my character analysis worksheet i wantto cry so bad jay gastby you are so tragic everyone yuoa re so tragic unbelievable man Disillusionment is so crazy. Shakes head. I need to stop this before i start hyperventilating goodnight diary. Also i wrote April 8th it is april 8 i would usually put april 7th in this case but in case i dont blog tomorrow/today i want to have an entry on april 8 BECAUE APRIL 8TH!!!!!! but any ways good bye. until the next time. i hope i will have moved on from this disgusting book

Hello everyone!!! I haven't updated in nearly a week i wish i could say its because i was busy but that is sort of not true... oopsie anyways happy sunday/monday. Currently I am sort of stressed out because theres not toomuch left in teh school year and I ahve a ton of projects and exams and then I'll need to worry abotu college apps Oh ym god Oh my god get me outof here. All that is keeping me sane right now is my friends and my music and as much as i hate to admit it.. the man himself..paul dano... On Friday I watched Little Miss Sunshine finally and its SO good I Know nobody but alice and selin is reading this but if somehow youa re and you ahven't watched it you must you simply must i cry i want to rewtach it rihgt now.. Oh another thign I did not mention is drawing drawing drawing I'm ahving so much fun i love doing aggie.io and since friday me and selin, pissed off by r/place have been doing our own personal little pixel art thing its so much fun i drew ponies and album covers in pixels so so so much fun. Drawing is probably the reason I have not been blogging it's too hard to pull myself away. I watched a ton of other movies (dano ones..sigh..) and things apart from sunshine! I watched ruby sparks with selin and alice and oh my god it was so underwhelming.. it was just disappointing and and not fun at all which could also be because i watched it in 2x speed (I was in a rush to go to my favorite korean restaurant for dinner ok) but man itwas just not that great. then i watched takign lives with alice which we thought would be epic and have lots of pretty paul dano in it but SPOILER! hes only in there for like two minutes and is then replaced by the most hideous man I've ever seen who has gross sex with a woman (he is totally gay though) but the end kind of made up for it i guess. i laughed. and then i watched the dropout with alice i forget what episode were on but man it is just crazy and I feel bad for elizabeth but only in the show i cannot um draw a connection the the real lfie one which si a good thing. and maaan i just love edmond hes just so good he makes me cry.. omg and i also binged young royals like on thursday night or somehting my irls had told me to and i didnt want to becasue i thought it would be like... typical sexy unrealistic boarding school teen drama that makes me want to rip my hair out and cry of boredom and frustration btu then i saw it on netflix adn foudn out there was GAY PEOPLE and i just couldn't resist the temptation.. and it was kind of good..i will be watching season 2 when it comes.. the first episode made me unsure but it got better as it got um gayer.. i am just a fujo you guys. is there aynthign else... cant think of anything... oh yea i took a stats test on wednesday (because i was absent on tuesday again out fo anxiety oopsie) and it was pretty easy i am so anxious to find out what i got hopefully relaly good. Sorry for ending this diary entry on the topic of school oooops.. Um let em cancel it out what else do i ahve to say..just i love mu friends bro. they the cutest and best love love love. Have a good week everyone iw ill try to remember to update often I'm going to read now for a bit i think
P.S. Look heres some of the little pixel stuff i made (twi is sort of copied everythign else is meeeeee =3

Hi guys it is Monday. I got home yesterday early but I forgot to blog. Oopsies! Umm now ill tell you about my weekend. Wekll when i think about it not much. I went to the forest this weekend for a conference thign and i was in the forest and it was epic becasue the forest is cute. I left on friday after school it was cute the route i took was really pretty and i'll put some pictures on the gallery (finally using it). On the way there I stopped for dinner at COSTCO i ate a hotdog and a slice of cheese pizza and a pepsi it was so yummy costco is best roadtrip food objectively you guys. Um while I was there in theforest i was kind of lonely the whole time.TBH! Felt like everyone knew eachother and i barely knew what was going on also becasue i got there late and missed the opening presentation thing. I was super anxiosu half the time but you know what I still had fun. It was kidn of fun to hide from everyone when I didn't knwo what we were doing by just taking walks around the forest.. And the trip back was fun too I ate at a super yummy mexican restaurant in the middle of the road. the area was super country though not even the waiters were wearing masks.. not what iam used to! At home i just hung out with alice and selin not too much new stuff we played FUNKY FRIDAY i missed them really bad so it was fun to chat! Today I am staying home from school beacuse im sick i really hope i did not get covid rfom one of the people that were not wearing their masks all weekend! I htink that is all im tired Im going to bother selin more right now to hang out with me! Ok bye have a good week friends.

12:03 - I am in history right now what is up you guyd. I felt like blogging in the middle of the day I don't have much to say other than I f ing love my friends!!!! They are the best and theyre really cute!!!! Also I am realy nervous for APs wawawa and I'm hungry right now ok I'm done

HAPPY THURSDAY!!!! I love thursdays always so pleasant. Today my wrist is feeling a bit better i realy just need to leave it alone oopsie... i almost finished the great gatsby today but i got too tired im so nervous to finsih it. We also had a sports assembly at school and they made all the team captains play a game where they pop balloons by sitting on eachothers laps and bouncing up and down OK... At home i called selin imissed hsi voice weeeee and we played funky friday ad did all the usual things... and then i wrote letters to send to selin and alice i love mail so excited i have epic surprises for them!!! I'm so nervous it'll get lost in the mail like alice's birthday card did but I will be super careful to get everything right and pray so hard it makes it quick! right now I am chatting with alice and about to go to bed after i publish this. my tummy also kind of hurts sad
Oh yeah and!! Tomorrow I am leaving to a thing for this weekend and I will likely not blog until i get back sunday. But I will hopefully have tons of stuff to talk about (I HOPE!) I will miss you all my dear loyal fans!
Have a good weekend (ﾉ･_-)☆

It took me strating a blog to realize how little actually goes on for me during weekdays but whatver i love to write in my diary. Today i fell on my wrist while playing badminton in gym i keep getting injured while playing this i go so hard and i still only manage to return the bird 50% of the time but it is so much fun dont care!!!!! I also started reading kare kano i LOOVE IT SO FAR its super cute~~~~ Other than that just chatted with my friends all day i lov them sososomuch theyre teh bestest friends ever. ia lso listened to msuci with selin i am manipulating his scrobbles so hard muahahahaha ლ(｀∀´ლ) That is about all!!! I think im having a pretty good week I know i said nothigns really going on but i enjoy it i am chilling so hard right now man.. Ok thast all see you tomorrow!
oh mu god also i realize i should put somehtign in my manga diary soon ive finsihed two mangas lately and started this and have so many i want to write about but it it sjut soo much work..... eventually..

Hello heleloo hello tuesday WHAT UP GUYS Today i was so tired even thoughi slept more yesterday... ;-; and we played badminton in gym again and i thought my arm was finally bettter but now it hurts again boohoohooo... But i went back to daiso after school for another surprise that i abandoned yesterday... i ended up also gettign more stickers and candy but its ok dont i deserve it!!! I did my work at home then listened to music and chatted with selin and I just read Ch.303 of skip beat hehehhehoho hehehee so cute! I am realy tired still so I'm trying to sleep soon but i dont knwo doesnt feel like ive been productive enough today.. I'll try to do some work before midnight since i start an hour later tomorrow anyway.. Today was a good day for music though.. nto to be an annoying nerd but great scrobbles today guys. and i rediscovered my love for teh microphones and the hotelier i fuckinh love music. OK bye bye

Surprise guys I'm killign myself i accidentally deleted this blog entry. In summary i got a 52/50 on my stats test i love statistics woo. and i went to daiso and i got melon cream soda and new stickers and a surprise. b

Hi!!! Happy Sunday! I didn't do much today. Woke up late as I alwasy do on weekends and i ate choconana pancakes at denny's. they were pretty yummy i love pancakes. I went home and had the epicest conversation with selin and alice. That's about it! Lazy Sunday~~~~ talk more tomorrow friends

Hello to all!! This is my second blog entry =D Today I woke up pretty late but that is nothing new... And i want to show you all the tree in my front yard that is blossoming right now!

Cute isn't it?? I forget what type of tree it is but it blossoms like this once a year for a few days and it smells so good and leaves my entry pathway covered in petals,, sooo pretty. I went out for lunch to my favorite dumpling place wiht my dad and my brother it was super yummy as always ^^ When I came home the most exciting thing happened@!!!!!!!!!! I GOT MY LETTER FROM ALICE!!!! FINALLYYY!!!! It was so cute you guys she sent me the sweetest letter and an outline of her hand to compare with mine and [REDACTED] that i cant mention here becasue itll spoil the surprise for selin AND. get this. her HAIR!!!! It was like unicorn hair i wrapped it around my wounds and they instantly disappeared and saved my life. Thank you Alice!!!!!! ♡♡♡♡ The hair is on my wall now rigthtnext to my valentine's card from Selin. I love my friends!!
Anyway, after that, I played stardew valley with Alice and Selin for a while. It was super fun and we played my fav event, the fair. We hung out for a little after while we all worked on our websites. Good day today!!! Thanks for reading bye bye (´^ω^)ノ

Today I didnt have school because the quarter ended yesterday. My grades weren't as great as they were first semester becasue the start of the second was pretty stressful for me. But hopefully I can bring them back up in the last quarter! I'm pretty nervous but I've already been doing better. I'm just nervous because I have a ton of big projects due this quarter plus AP tests. [shudders] And there's really not that long left in teh school year!!! Then after that it's time to start doing college apps TT I'm sooo nervous that I'm going to end up really stressed out... pray for me~~ but that's enough talk about schoool i think..
Ahh like I said I had a day off today,, I was really lookign forward to waking up early and makign the most out of it. I set an alarm at 8:30 but I ended up sleeping in anyway and only got out of bed at like 12:30.. prettt disappointing but I had a good day nonetheless. I was plannign to go out and watch the batman but the motivation left my body early in the day... So I ended up working on my site (or, that's what I want you to believe, but really I got distracted looking through gifcities for way too long.. oops!) then I (FINALLY) watched hereditary with alice. To be honest i didn't understand it at all and i am too lazy to read or watch analysis but it really creeped me out o_O ... and I ahd lots of fun. Now I'm sitting here doing this!! and drinking tea (it's genmaicha my faavorite) and chatting with selin and alice. taht's about it i think! have a wonderful day friends (๑•ᴗ•๑) ♡